I watched Inside Out today with my sister at SM North. I almost cried, but I held it in. --- I'm starting to think that I should have never been born. But God always has a reason why. Maybe when I'm in Heaven, I'd ask Him why. Because I feel like I'm not mentally equipped enough to handle the things that are expected of me to accomplish. I'm expected to be friendly, because that's just the normal human way, but I don't feel like getting validation from other people. I don't crave any friendship. I have no idea why. But I don't. --- 113 days of school left. --- Someday, if it would please God, if I won't be thinking about my future job and doing it, then I should think of God, and second, my family. And maybe I should put God first in my life. And then maybe do my job in the best way I possibly can, because He has made me a steward of the skills he'd bestowed on me. I just hope I gain those necessary skills. I mean, I've found that I don't even like studying at all.