It was rainy today. And I still don't have internet in the dorm. We're gonna have our general assembly later so maybe they're gonna say something about it. --- Also, I shaved my sideburns. --- Okay. I sincerely thought that after all the crying bouts and how God has helped me get through it all, my mind won't simply be content with having been soothed and instead tries to focus on other minor problems. Typical. Like for example, I just shaved my sideburns tonight. And I kept inverting the image from one mirror to the other so I could really see what I look like to other people. I don't like the way I look. I just don't. I probably never will. I look too plain. Or I just have a mannish face. I have to accept the fact that I will never have a sweet, feminine face. I have to accept that no guy will ever think I'm attractive. It's hard not to care, but I'm trying not to think about it. I'm not getting married. Why does it bother me so much? --- Listening to old songs + studying Physics 71. I don't know if it's working, but listening to catchy songs somehow motivate me. That, and I really want to please God, but it's hard to stop procrastinating. I really wish I had coffee right now, but there's no water dispenser.