Being attractive is something I never will be. I used to care about it a whole lot, but now i don't. Thankfully. Maybe i still do sometimes, but it's become less of a priority now. I can't help but think that if i ever become successful and competent and established in the future, it'll be the thing that'll take the most of my time again. Because it's on a queue. It hasn't completely faded. I still, to some extent, care about what other people think about my physical appearance. Because? Well, the prestige part, really. I want people to look up to me, and they won't if I don't look dignified and sharp. I'd have to get rid of my yellow teeth and acne-ridden skin and big bulky legs and perhaps get a more even skin tone. And maybe get my eyebrows to become more thicker. And, maybe eat healthier so I don't look dead. I have so much to improve that looking at the mountain of things I have to accomplish makes me very inclined to just give up. Everyone's always better than me. They got their shit figured out, or what looks like it. Maybe they don't. But I feel like a complete mess. --- Great. In order to live in the dorm of my dreams next year, I have to have at least 3000 dollars more or less. dollars. or 150,000 php. that's a lot of money and i don't even know how i'm going to earn that much in two months of summer. Maybe that'll finally push me enough to make that viral app that will earn me thousands of dollars per day. And of course, I'd need top-notch internet connection, so that's another 5000 pesos per month. Where the heck am i going to get all that money?!?