I just feel so angry right now. Everything is unfair. I mean i know that a lot of people are worse off than me but countless of other people are having the good life right now. They're all enjoying their summer vacations while I still have over 60 days left here in this hellhole. I am drowning in requirements which wouldn't be that hard for someone else, but I have a below average brain. SO yeah, I am suffering while everyone else gets to enjoy and be carefree. I'm all alone in this dorm right now and I really wish I was back home and not having to worry about getting high enough grades to be able to shift into computer science. I really hope I get at least a 1.5 in math. I still have a lot more readings to go. I need a miracle. I really am scared of finding out what my KAS 1 exam grade is. And my art stud exam grade. I mean they're just GEs but GEs also contribute to my GWA. Why do I feel like everything I do isn't legitimate. Like I don't know what I'm doing most of the time. I don't know if anyone else feels like this, because I sure as hell didn't feel like this in high school. I have crippling anxiety every time I think about starting reports. And speaking of reports, I have a presentation this week in art stud. Granted, it would be easier than writing a formal report in chem, which I have to finish right now, but I stutter every time I start to speak to an audience. Well, maybe I don't know my shit well enough. I still have to get started on that too. Where did all of my Holy Week Break go? Everything is moving too fast.