I've been sleeping in very inconsistent chunks. I don't know. I watched a very weird play today. And I have to write a paper on it. For incentive. I can't wait to go home. I decided that I won't have a midyear term and I'm coming to terms with the fact that I will be delayed. But whatever. I can't take chem and bio anymore. I dropped bio a long time ago, but just thinking about the soul-crushing amount of information I have to memorise and eventually forget is just overwhelming. I think college made me lose interest in biology or chemistry. I've discovered a Facebook account that sells modafinil in retail!!! OMG. I'm getting five pieces tomorrow. I can't wait to drink them and become smarter. Basically I've got nothing to lose since I have brain fog on almost a daily basis that not even coffee seems to help. I really want to quit coffee but modafinil is expensive as hell. It's 90 pesos a pop. I know. I'm spending 450 for some 5 pieces that I'll have to ration to last a month somehow. --- I took a modafinil tablet today. I'm currently 20 minutes in. And I don't feel anything yet. --- Modafinil is amazing. Or is it just placebo. Maybe both though. I don't feel tired at all. --- I can literally feel the amazing effects of modafinil. I don't want to know if it's just placebo but dammit my train of thought is clearer and I have no desire to go on reddit.