#### Friday. Doesn't even feel rewarding anymore. Is this what depression feels like? I've been having second thoughts about shifting. I don't know if I can handle learning all about code. Maybe it's just the first part that's hard. I can do this. --- If I want mad results, I must be mad myself. I mean, obsessive, tunnel vision kind of mad. I don't want to be a jack of all trades, fading in the background of other average graduates. I want to be the best. Now if I could actually go and shift right now, I would. But alas, I still have two more excruciating months to finish. And by then, I hope I still have the drive to become a programmer. I plan to harness as much experience in programming as possible, and upping my typing speed to its full potential probably. I'll need that of course. I want to create apps that should theoretically get as much international attention as possible so that international companies _might_ notice my potential. However, i wished I had started earlier. There are so many prodigies I have to compete with, and they've probably sold thousands of apps before they graduate from high school. Oh well, the next best time to start is now.