Well, I've read some reviews about how Modafinil really is a life changer but there was one review where it said that Modafinil basically ruined the guy's life. My life's already ruined anyway so there's no way but up! I'm going to have to earn 160 USD in one week once I get over this hell week coming. --- One of the saddest moments of my childhood was when I decided to Google how much Filipino girls spend on clothing. I was a little girl with no self-esteem but even then I was kind of sad that my parents didn't buy me a lot of things. I didn't really specifically Google for it, it was just on a website for a Filipino tween magazine. And the posters all posted amounts like P10,000 or P15,000 on every shopping spree for shoes and clothes and my heart just sank. I mean, I'm not dirt poor. It's just that I never really got anything that grandiose. And there are all these girls in the PH with all their parents' money shopping around every weekend spending up to 10K pesos without batting an eye. I mean, it was sad, but also very infuriating for me at least.I can imagine how my parents felt when they couldn't really buy me those things. Even though they might want to, they don't. Because they'll know I'll end up spoilt. And besides, we weren't that rich. It's just sad how I thought I was neglected just because my parents don't spend so much on material possessions for me.