It's still nighttime, so I don't really consider this to be tomorrow's entry. I really hope that God would grant us a condo from the SM promo. I really want it and I think we need it because it'll cost us nothing and my sister would hopefully go here to study next year. I really pray that God would grant this. Just imagine, I wouldn't have to be sitting in this dorm room with every piece of furniture creaking and squeaking. I sound so discontent, but please God, forgive me, I can't help not wanting that condo. I really hope that we win, against all odds. I know it'll take great faith, but someone once told me to God-size my prayers. I'm looking at the pictures of the said condo right now and I can feel the ache of wanting it so bad. I know in my heart that God exists but in our Philo class, the concept of something not being truth if you can't provide evidence to prove that it is just irritates me a little. For that class I've decided to keep my faith to myself and just 'agree' to get good grades. But sometimes I can't help but feel that God is "more" real to me if He grants my prayers. Like am I really that of little faith that I need proof too? I know it's foolish to think that way. But I find myself thinking that if my family actually wins a condo, my faith in God would be even more strengthened. I'm really sorry God if I feel this way, please change my heart.