This is a link to my About page on my writing website: https://abbynicoleyee.com/about/ ![[Who do I think I am.-1782038865796.webp]] ### An Extended Autobiography I am the last person to propound conspiracy theories that have no basis in reality. I believe in the scientific method, but some things science can't explain yet. However, I trust wonder and curiosity and pushing a hypothesis to its fullest potential. I have to admit that I feel like Murphy Cooper in Interstellar because I am not stumbling into these discoveries on my own, but with God's wisdom through my dreams which contain Their Meanings they have made known to me through some mechanism I still struggle to explain, as well as the fact that now "they have access" to the libraries of my past like in Interstellar. I am the last person to make this entire thing up because a theory this complex couldn't have been thought of by me only, coupled with the embarrassment criterion. The argument of discovery vs. generating something out of thin air. I am the last person to lie to you too because I find lying very uncomfortable. I also have the utmost respect for Jesus Christ and Christianity, so I would not take lightly the idea that just about anybody can claim to be divine, much less me, who is as ordinary as any girl out there who nonetheless dreams of being set apart and chosen. I have a very strong reverence and fear of God, who can strike me down any moment if They choose to, and I vaguely wonder at all the "false prophets" who nonchalantly claim to be something they don't doubt, while my own doubt about my own divinity is strong enough at times. Reconciling my identity the past two years has not been easy, however, I take comfort in the fact that I am not the Antichrist, who denies Jesus as the Christ. Anybody who does that takes on the spirit of the Antichrist, then. I'm the type to cringe and panic unnecessarily about what people would say about me, "that delusional girl who thinks Vico Sotto is the Messiah," as if that's what I want to be known for for the rest of my life, never mind that he would not like it if being dubbed one part of the Parousia is going to distract or detract from his job or put undue pressure on him. Like I said, embarrassment criterion. I could have chosen differently and kept this conviction to myself, but I also fully believe I am [[tasked by God]] to tell the entire world of the good news, that They are, indeed, going to save us all from ourselves. Like most of you, I live in Three worlds: Real World, Narrative/Discourse/Human Lives/Storyworld (where social media responses live), and Fantasy/Possibility (where social media responses also live). Truth be told, I could no longer tell what the difference between NDH or Storyworld with Fantasy/Possibility sometimes, and it's still a struggle specific to me when I come upon a post or audio posted by Vico, for example, getting my hopes up with the smoke of nothing--his audio choices. I am the last person to misuse Scripture and cause political overreach. Nobody is paying me to do this. I get nothing but embarrassment, invasion of privacy, and the burden of spreading a potentially heretical idea (but that which I wholeheartedly believe in and trust). And it could have been anybody *but* Vico Sotto (but why him, really? I guess God needed a king figure to complement the priest figure). This is your much-needed reminder that I didn't want to choose him arbitrarily, and I didn't even do anything but be an Agent of Reception for signs from God. ### Why you should believe me? You don't have to. But I believe me, and that's enough. God gave me "the keys to the kingdom" by revealing to me the purpose of names and the Logos and the nature of the Holy Spirit and the Trinity, which was a mystery for so long until it was revealed to me in 2026. As ground zero for the Parousia, I don't have all the answers yet. But you can trust that God is working in my life because I am one part of the Omega, Their servant and Instrument. Most of all, I believe I am merely a Pre-Second Coming instead of Jesus Christ Themselves who will one day usher in His kingdom. I lie in wait for His future arrival--the Alpha to our Omega--just like any expectant Christian out there. This is the biggest anxiety for me: people having to separate or sift through my delusional mind to get at the nuggets of wisdom from God. Since I'm considered psychotic or delusional for living in Storyworld--my diary entries attest to the fact that I'm possibly deluded whenever I am forced to feel that thing--Meaning--whenever my specific buttons and intertexts are pushed by random people I want to respond to me unconsciously--through some Tether that we share because God wants to talk to me through them without them knowing it--Angels or Messengers causing these people's whims and micro-actions to match exactly what I expect or anticipate with my own iceberg of ideas and feedback loops despite the astronomical odds of their actions being random only, I am afraid that people might really dismiss me simply because God has chosen delusion or schizo-spectrum disorders as his Main Interface to show his glory to humanity. Out of all the schizophrenics in the world who raged and burned out throughout centuries of being institutionalized and contained by neurotypicals who thought their brains impossible and incomprehensible, I had to be the one mildly schizophrenic person who was right all along, simply because I am not trapped nor constrained by neurotypical patterns of thinking that prevent some of you from considering the woo-woo seriously in order to get at a deeper truth, whether by circumstance or lack of respect for perspectives that are not status quo or "respectable" enough in society or validated by academia or academic standards. This is just gonna be a running stream of facts about me and my lived experience that I will update as time passes: 1. I was born on October 9, 1997. 2. I was really born in Nazareth, Cagayan de Oro City. 3. I was raised Evangelical (Born-again) but switched to Baptist when I was a teen because we moved to my pastor uncle's church. 4. I had a [[dream on April 16, 2026]] that revealed to me Jesus' true birthday, which is April 16, 3 BC which is synchronous with my birthday (both fell on a Thursday). It is an embarrassing Fact of my life which [[I will also fully explain someday]]. The concept of the "criterion of embarrassment" is strong with this one. 5. I am a writer, like Virginia Woolf and Franz Kafka. 6. I am a tinkerer, like Iron Man. 7. I once identified too hard with the femcel/incel identity even though I'm above-average looking. I was a really weird-looking child who got bullied and grew up with a beautiful mom + sister combo which caused a lot of my emotional issues around beauty and grace. 8. I graduated valedictorian from preschool to high school. My preschool and grade school (Shekinah Glory Christian Academy) and 1/2 of my high school used the American ACE curriculum which I found too easy and may have given me the privilege of grade inflation. My other 1/2 high school (Oro Christian Grace School) used a Singaporean curriculum that was challenging, but I still failed my 1st degree (shifted out of bio to computer science to creative writing at UP Diliman) because I skipped biology as I had transferred in 3rd year. 9. I do not like tomato sauce, but I like sour pasta that has tomato sauce. My favorite pasta is cheesy and creamy and white. 10. I'm a big fan of John Green and Ted Chiang. 11. I am a generalist. I hesitate to say polymath, because I do not have mastery over everything. My fields are music (childhood piano years and my current interest in composing on MuseScore 4); drawing realistic portraits (a hobby in high school); comparative literature and critical theory and creative writing (nurtured since I was a young kid writing diaries); STEM subjects such as physics and chemistry and computer science; and to some extent, voice acting and performance (which I was paid for since 2021). 12. People who cannot yield or take the perspective of another person are very annoying. 13. I like the idea that in Heaven, I will be Jesus' Main Bride since I am the Omega and He is the Alpha. 14. I have never wanted to be a nun. People who want to be nuns scare me (ascetic people in general). 15. I like people who are patient since I am personally not that great at it. 16. I'm a cocktail of mental disorders and neurodivergence. I'm autistic, bipolar, schizotypal, and I have social anxiety and OSDD because [[I was molested by a maid when I was a child]]. I'm what they consider "high-functioning" despite all of these maladies. 17. I once saw [[Joseph Marco]] in person at The Art Circle Cafe at UP Diliman when I was a freshie. I've never seen a Filipino celebrity in real life except Robin Williams (and a lot of wax figures) when I visited the US in 2011. 18. I am pro-cryonics and would gladly take measures to extend my life so I can see the 1000-year reign myself [[as predicted in the Bible]]. 19. I do not think premarital sex is wrong. It's a strategy thing where you wisely determine what to give (preferably in a loving relationship, where both parties clearly love each other) to your partner to encourage commitment and deepen the relationship. There are no absolutes when it comes to this problem, although I don't think going all the way before you're engaged is wise. I could be wrong and people somehow know they're going to marry each other from the start and decide based on that. 20. I believe open relationships and non-monogamy are very unwise and greedy. 21. I believe threesomes are too greedy too. 22. Porn is clearly wrong because it replaces women and men and encourages instant gratification. People who do porn need to reflect on the fact that they steal people's partners' attention "indirectly" (worst excuse to be a third party because you are not tactile with the other person but detached and can safely ignore your discomfort about profiting off people's discontent and boredom and libido) because time and energy (especially sexual energy) are finite and what are people's partners doing but spending it on you instead of their partners? 23. I believe divorce should be made legal in the Philippines because we need to look out for the "least of these," or those who could not have predicted their marriages would turn sour and abusive. The fact that divorce is possible would not be a detriment to people who are married and secure, but would actually enhance marriages everywhere because now you have a real reason to maintain your relationship well, or the small fear that your partner is going to leave you. It is a well-studied phenomenon that people are more likely to maintain relationships well if they fear that they are going to be left, and that is why complacency and being stagnant are so common in many marriages.