Why are you reading me at this point if you remain skeptical? Do you want other answers? God will go through great lengths to blind you spiritually for a reason probably, and in my methods I will fail to convince you (not that I'd want to save you from yourself if you remain stubbornly critical) despite everything impossible that has happened in my life, a living miracle, and it is only your pride that you need to confront before you are even ready to receive further development from God, especially if you are wondering why Hugot is not working for you. Maybe God is telling you to be patient. Maybe, like me, you'd have to wait nearly 30 years for satisfaction and Truth in your own life such that you can no longer doubt God's love. I wish you nothing but what you deserve. Every possible injustice, every possible hurt, every tender pain you carry against God, Their Love, and Their ultimate plan for you and your specific circumstances. _You have been waiting. I am here. Why is the waiting so much more comfortable than the arrival?_